Currently short-term teaching a high school art class and actually being present in the system after studying it for so long is so fucking different and it fucking depresses me. These juniors/seniors can’t spell “cologne” or “scented” and graduation is literally a week away…the problem isn’t that they’re stupid or illiterate—it’s the stupid, STUPID American education system that is fucking over these kids. This school has students bussing an hour to two hours from different parts of LA every morning to sit and “learn” from inefficient ROP teachers who give no shits about their culture or background. And the system isn’t working with low-to-middling-achievers giving as many shits as their teachers do (none), so apparently administration is thinking about turning into a charter school. It sounds all nice and packaged because charter schools work, right? Yeah. They work because they filter out all the ESL learners and working-class students and students with disabilities and usher in the smart ones. The charter schools they want to model themselves after are 60% gifted, middle/upper middle class children and THAT’S WHY THEY WORK. BECAUSE IT WOULD MAKE ABSOLUTELY NO SENSE FOR IT NOT TO WORK. No, the charter system is solid…for the charter school students. High standardized test scores and college acceptance rates are great for those kids, I’m happy for them, but take a look at everyone that’s left behind—bright students that don’t access to resources are lumped in a mix of all the “leftovers” that schools didn’t want. And as the success rates of charter schools rise, the public school dies. And so do the students. Middle class vs working class. The shift in the education system is framed all nicely by the administrators as a positive change because proof that charter schools work! These kids are doing well on their SATs and their test scores show it! But in reality it’s just driving the wedge deeper between classes. In this stupid two-dimensional system it’s supposed to work. But the world is three-dimensional, and this shit shouldn’t be happening. Fifteen years from now we’re looking at ten urban schools with low test scores and low expectations for every successful charter.
fuck this was not very well articulated I hope nobody reads this
Congratulations graduates! If you paid to sit through medieval literature just to get a job as a burrito-bot, you still might have picked the best option.
#6. There’s a Good Chance Your Degree Is Useless
"Why the hell did I just pay $100,000 for a bachelor’s degree?" asks Mr. College Graduate. Well, you hardly had a choice, considering your name is College Graduate, but also, as bad as things look for someone with a degree, you are absolutely fucked without one. … For the first time in history, in order to get a job as a secretary making $30,000 a year, you need a bachelor’s degree that costs three times that. Even worse, the vast majority of you had to borrow to pay for that degree, and all told there is an astonishing $1.2 trillion in outstanding student loan debt in the USA alone. And of course, much of that debt is owed by people who are using their expensive knowledge to roll burritos at Chipotle, a job that itself exists only because the robot they built to do it got too depressed.
1998 IG/RS, A.F. Vandevorst spring—summer 1999
I kept a private wordpress for the past year and a half so I didn’t put much up on tumblr…I went back and scrolled through my past posts and boy I was a little shit. Obsessed with not being labeled as anything because I thought people were stupid. Depressed about everything. Too into myself.
This whole “personal journey” thing is so weird. I got out of the dance community (unwillingly but it was for the best…but that’s a whole nutha post) and got back into what I was doing freshman year before Danceoff - digging around LA. I met the whole scene I was so hungry for two years ago and now I’m active in it and it’s cool but surreal and makes me rethink my life. AGAIN. How many goddamn times I gotta rethink life before it makes sense. A lot probably.
ugh idk it’s 10th week bye
Junior Emily feels the same about finals as Freshman Emily.
night drive to Skyline yesterday at 1am in the morning with Zubin and Nancy and the three of us lay on top of Zubin’s car there listening to music and looking up at the stars and then down at the three entire cities sprawled across the horizon below and it was a very dear part of the summer, this last night with friends.
Streetstyle: Park Sungjin during NYFW SS 2014 shot by Park Jimin
a disconnection.. but you’ll figure it out, won’t you? Will you still love me? Will you still call me friend?
“Be my baby” by Steven Meisel for Vogue Italia February 2004
Learning, and loving, and living. I’ve learned a lot today. I have loved things all my life. I have never lived. I guess today was the lesson I needed to realize that I’ve been a loser. I’ve lost people I loved, I’ve lost the lessons learned, I’ve lost opportunities at a life I know I should be living.
I’m still lost. I’m not much good at anything. I’m unemployed. I gave up a job and an internship because someone pulled the leash one way and I just gave up and followed like a little bitch after a halfhearted attempt at fighting back. I don’t know what I want to do still or even if I want to stay in school. And I’ve been making so many stupid mistakes leading up to this point that I hate myself for being too scared to do anything about my life. I’ll bitch about it and feel bitter and broken and angry but I’ve never done anything before. What am I doing? I don’t know. Maybe I won’t know for a while.
Yeah. I don’t know. But I guess I’ll have to sooner or later.